Growing up, Buzz Lightyear was my childhood hero. Who wouldn’t want to be a space ranger with a questionable ability to fly. Fast forward to late twenties Fie, and I want to be more like Elsa. Channeling my inner Disney princess may sound bizarre but a few phrases of hers, I am trying to use more and more in my everyday life.
Let It Go
You will no doubt have heard the Frozen theme song by Idina Menzel, Let It Go, Let It Go. Something I am actively trying to get better at. I am the first to get worked up at something being unjust, or hold onto the past for months or years on end. Leading to the snowball of my anxiety and to the detriment of my mental health. By learning to be like Elsa and just let it go, I am trying to live more in the moment.
This applies to my running, my work and everything in between. Things have happened, it’s not always a smooth ride, but it has made me stronger. Letting go of the has been, gives me more space to focus on the future.
That perfect girl is gone
Perfection and I have an ugly relationship. My constant desire for everything to be perfect has caused me to always seek validation as well as 100% success in everything I do. News flash, perfection doesn’t exist. I recently restarted therapy, something I am in a fortunate position to be able to afford and have access to. My therapist is helping me work through my anxieties and my desire to be perfect all the time, breaking it down through compassion therapy. I am working on being able to let go of perfection and be happy with what I have achieved and whatever future Fie will also achieve. It was my therapist, who pointed out the above lyric that Elsa sings, that perfect girl is gone.
One way I will never be like Elsa though is the cold. I hate being cold. The cold will always bother me anyway.